| You drive fast I'll do the drugs. |
[20 Jun 2005|10:11pm] |
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The Eels |
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I'm getting fucking far away from Holly.
Of course I will stay in touch with the ones I care about.
You know who you are.
Don't forget me.
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| I love liquor. |
[15 Mar 2005|07:53pm] |
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very very very very very sad |
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The Dandy Warhols |
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Bourbon
Congratulations! You're 123 proof, with specific scores in beer (60) , wine (66), and liquor (104). |
| Screw all that namby-pamby chick stuff, you're going straight for the bottle and a shot glass! It'll take more than a few shots of Wild Turkey or 99 Bananas before you start seeing pink elephants. You know how to handle your alcohol, and yourself at parties. |
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My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 60% on proof |
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You scored higher than 87% on beer index |
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You scored higher than 90% on wine index |
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You scored higher than 98% on liquor index |
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[27 Feb 2005|03:37pm] |
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drink up for fun weekends...
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| We may die from medication... |
[16 Nov 2004|12:36am] |
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lonely |
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Violent Femmes |
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Tell you man I'm stuck on this lovely girl.
Of course, to me you know she means all the world.
but then she like another guy
I fall down dead, she never sees the tears I cry.
Please, please, please do not go.
How long can the days go on?
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| I'll take THINGS THAT MAKE TYLER SAD for 300. |
[08 Nov 2004|11:00am] |
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lonely |
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Bright Eyes |
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Now I do as I please
and I lie through my teeth
Someone might get hurt,
but it won't be me.
Should probably feel cheap,
but I just feel free and
a little bit empty.
No it isn't so hard to get close to me.
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| Come on, have a heart. Tell me you love me. |
[04 Nov 2004|12:56pm] |
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lonely |
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At The Drive-In |
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Post a memory of me.
It can be anything you want.
Then post this to your journal.
See what people remember about you.
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| I do what I want....Sorry. |
[01 Nov 2004|07:34pm] |
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Pink Floyd |
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I don't deserve you or you, or you, or you, or you......
I don't deserve anyone.
Whatever.
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| WHAT A MESS... |
[01 Nov 2004|06:42pm] |
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Simpsons on TV |
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Your gentleman caller
Well, he's been calling on another
He loves his forbidden fruit
And as it dribbles down his chin
He cries:
"Baby I've been drinking with some friends now how about a little kiss"
Bad boy
Rub his nose in it, what a mess
And he's playing dumb
I'm not looking for a lover
All those lovers are liars
I would never lie to you
You say you wanna get even
Yeah you wanna get your bad man good
Well, are you in the mood?
You bad girl
Does it feel good
Being bad? and get worse
But in the morning
On the sliver dawn of sunday
You're not sure what you have done
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| Love would make you go the distance. |
[30 Oct 2004|02:30am] |
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I think I'm in love. |
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Touch.....think about it |
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All I saw in the rear view mirror...
was a town I will never be in again.
I was there for you.
No one else.
All I want is for you to realize that and appreciate it.
Do you?
I need to know.
Tell me.
You're lucky I made it home.
You don't realize how many times I thought
about falling asleep on the way home;
just to end it all.
No one won tonight.
Don't feel satisfied.
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[25 Oct 2004|07:46am] |
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close our eyes-pretend to fly
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| A memory of us. |
[22 Oct 2004|05:31pm] |
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AMAZING |
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Velvet Underground |
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touch, lying on the floor
wishing this could last
but knowing that it can’t
and soon you will leave
and i will be on the floor,
watching the tv, trying hard to find a reason to move
i’m frozen in one place, staring at the screen
listening to the rain falling on the street
some days go on too long
and no one can hang out tonight
here, where the carpet is cool and soft,
underneath the clock i feel my weary heart is put to rest
you gather around your friends
the connection that you feel when the night has not yet died
you are new with a promise of a love
you will probably never find
and touch that you can really feel
the brokenness inside,
the hope and this collide
and nothing is real
(you are new and near now to someone you used to love
when you were young; when all was gold and you two touched
and felt the flutter underneath your skin. you stood in glowing rooms,
the light dripping from both of you.
and nothing since has felt as radiant or real.)
and there is nothing more i want than just one night
that’s free of doubt and sadness
one night that i can really feel.
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| HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY |
[17 Oct 2004|09:07pm] |
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you know.... |
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The Faint |
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I am a happy person.
Don't try to bring me down.
I just want to kiss.
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| I would make the most beautiful death. |
[11 Oct 2004|06:05pm] |
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It's a big thought in my head right now,
but then I think about how many people
would be let down by not having me around.
So this is what depression is?
You're the smartest person on Earth.
You're the only person that knows me.
I guess I'm the best lie.
You know the real me.
We are so alike.
You are perfect, but not for me.
You deserve so much more.
I can't help but feel these feelings.
There isn't a time when I don't think that
I'd be much happier dead.
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| every chapter |
[04 Oct 2004|10:38am] |
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i got to use it while i got it |
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sorry i take advantage of the password |
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well all this i am about to say you have heard over and over, i dont know if its that you dont get it or if it is not important to you and that you are looking for someone more. regardless you are on the list you actully, are high ranking on the list, right under all the reasons why people think i am crazy (they just dont understand) most of those reasons have been around a long time but you, i dont know you just came almost out of nowhere and became one of the most important people in my life, in the top five to be exact. this sounds meaningless coming from me but its so much more then love (i mean seriouly what do i know about that anyway) its not just love its not because i think i love you and boyfriend/girlfriend stuff its more
you are way more to me and everyone
you listened, always helped, you stuck up for me, and you made me laugh and laugh and laugh not to feel more comfortable then anybody i have ever met (geez i tell you everything) you made me feel beautiful when i felt ugly, you made me feel ugly when i needed it you changed me as much as i know you hate that word but its true, you help with the person i am today a person i am some what content with at the time and you know why... because i know your there, i know you are there when i need you -to be my bestside and no matter how far or time apart or differences in life i know i will always need my bestside, everyone needs there bestside you dont just leave it, its always there, its one of the most important parts of a person. although this is just the story of a simple girl she just wanted you to know that your in every chapter of her book. and so many other people, so dont let them fool you.
I ALWAYS THINK INTO EVERTHING TOO MUCH
and i know i will never understand you but we both know that i will always try <3
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| Here comes my depression again. |
[03 Oct 2004|08:34pm] |
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lonely AND content |
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I wish I was listening to leonard cohen |
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I need to stay happy.
I can be happy at times.
I wish they would last.
I don't like remembering either so once it happens it's done.
It's just a memory after that.
I like my memories.
I love them.
Yet they can't make me happy at this time.
Please don't take this the wrong way anyone.
I will never forget any amazing moments I've had.
I just always want to be making these memories.
I have met so many wonderful people in my life.
I don't meet too many people these days because I am picky.
I try to pick the ones that I will never forget.
So far I have found so many that have impacted my life so much.
Come to think about it this is making me very happy.
Just the thought of how many great people I have come to meet.
Thank you everyone so much for everything.
I just hope I could be have as great to you as you have been to me.
I can't help but feel so sad knowing I am not giving as much as I receive.
Then there comes the depression.
I just want to be remembered.
I want to be thought of as a dependable friend.
Someone that people will think of when they think of wonderful things.
I'm sure I am rambling, but it is making me feel good to actually talk about what I feel.
I don't do this that often.
If anyone knows me, I am not a talker.
I've been told I am not understood.
Just understand that I NEED certain people in my life.
Understand that you may not always understand.
Never think into anything too much.
I take much pleasure in very simple things.
If you try to understand me it won't happen.
Just let things happen.
I need someone right now.
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| Back to being depressed. |
[26 Sep 2004|03:35am] |
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i'll fake it through the day
with some help from johnny walker red
send the poison rain down the drain
to put bad thoughts in my head
two tickets torn in half
and a lot of nothing to do
do you miss me, miss misery
like you say you do?
a man in the park
read the lines in my hand
told me i'm strong
hardly ever wrong i said man you mean
you had plans for both of us
that involved a trip out of town
to a place i've seen in a magazine
that you left lying around
i don't have you with me but
i keep a good attitude
do you miss me, miss misery
like you say you do?
i know you'd rather see me gone
than to see me the way that i am
but i am in the life anyway
next door the tv's flashing
blue frames on the wall
it's a comedy of errors, you see
it's about taking a fall
to vanish into oblivion
is easy to do
and i try to be but you know me
i come back when you want me to
do you miss me miss misery
like you say you do?
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